Our focus was softening the internal stress grip we have within our bodies and pay attention to thoughts and emotions as we soften. Then we shared and David prodded, challenged, and held a mirror up to us. Within this stress grip, David claims, is the suppression of an emotion that if we give into it we believe we will die; which is why we grip so hard. He said his emotion is anger. He was trained away from it.

I’m actually coming to see that there is no separation between what I consider to be human and spiritual. Emotions are holy and sacred. I, as a person having them, are too. And I’m seeing appreciation within and all around me. External public life is chaotic right now and yet it is still life and I am still living. Can I, will I, bring Grace to myself and to others?

Then on the 6th I asked my Self deeper questions. I was reminded that in Consciousness there is the individual point of Consciousness that can be awake or asleep. Then there is the collective consciousness which is the temperature of the whole. The collective consciousness isn’t very healthy right now. It is riddled with fear, violence, embracing of the ego as supreme and dominant.

I have grieved a lot this week. Ideas I once held dear have died. From this experience I’ve come to realize that all grief is the death of a mental construct (idea) which blows open my heart. Nothing in form lasts. You know this and I know this. And yet my mind holds on to ideas as though they are untouchable or somehow don’t abide by all principles of form; they will change and die. Form changes. Everything alive in form changes. This includes people, systems, structures, the earth, the body and ideas.

Lying is a low vibration. Lying misleads, hurts, and damages. And yet when we get in the habit of telling ourselves little white lies, they pile up until we no longer know who we are. When we are separated from ourselves we experience feelings of being lost. To get ourselves back, we begin by telling ourselves the small “t” truths — what is and isn’t working in our lives and the capital T “Truths” that never change, anchoring us into the spiritual.

One of my favorite questions to ask people is what is occupying their attention? What are they curious about and where is the curiosity taking them.

I believe curiosity is one of the ways God talks to us. What captures and pulls me and what captures and pulls you are most likely different.

When we go outside of our comfort zone and experience something unknown we are given the opportunity to lean into Spirit for our support. This kind of stress is different than remaining in a toxic relationship or doing a job that isn’t ours to do. Wrong job or relationship stress can wear on the entire being and create illness. Shamans have a name for this “Soul Sickness” — cores stresses when we are out of alignment with our Soul harm our body. The only form of healing is to return to alignment. Isn’t that interesting?

This past Thursday I couldn’t eat any more meat, seafood and poultry protein if I tried. My body revolted. So, I fasted. I started with a water fast then throughout the day decided adding celery juice was okay. I did this for three days. While I wasn’t craving food, I interestingly craved the outdoors. I had to be outside. I sat under a maple tree and read, wrote in my journal, and took in the energy around me. I needed the earth, hungrily. So I laid on it, thanked it, touched it, watered it, and loved it. This shifted my focus from the food and exercise discipline I’d engaged in…and I began to lighten up.

When I am needing to revive myself and to take in fortifying energy, I go outside and lie on the ground. I look for the greenest patch of grass and I lie. As my body is on the ground I breath deeply. I allow myself to feel the energy from The Mother rise up into and around my energy field. I let my body surrender. I allow myself to be held.

This past month I’ve added another practice to my journaling. I have been picking an Ascended Master Card, an Angel Card or a Mother Mother (her attributes) Oracle card and then reading what the individual or attribute on the card says. Then I write them a letter. For example, Archangel Haniel represents passion. So I wrote her about my passions and where they feel lacking. Then there’s Archangel Chamuel who represents work and career.

But I haven’t wanted to be seen. I’ve wanted my energy to be felt. I created the ability to be invisible as a super power. And, because I haven’t wanted to be seen, I attracted many people who could only see themselves in me through their own projection. These tended to be people with an undeveloped or underdeveloped consciousness. Somehow I figured if those who couldn’t see me saw themselves in me then I’d met my goal. I allowed this knowing (never a secret) to permeate my being as I played with the idea of ME allowing others to SEE me.

So what does it mean to BE Present? First BEing is an active verb coming from the Substance of Life Itself. This is why using the words “I am…” is so powerful. Present is fully embodied in our beautiful body temple — being at home. Please give yourself the gift of occupying your home before you lay it down for good.

Asking isn’t limited to the physical realm, at all. Asking for healing, revelation, safety, guidance and more is part of the ongoing conversation with Spirit. I am doubling down with THE ASK and I will continue to SHARE as part of my life’s work. What are you afraid to ask for from the Universe or from others? Do you want to join me in building this muscle?

As I laid in bed I claimed this for myself. “Holy Spirit, alter my vision and my mind that I may see and perceive with Divine Mind and Sight”. I was ecstatic. Then I heard “anoint yourself.” As I placed oil upon my forehead and felt the experience of becoming new (during Easter week no less) I knew in my cellulars structure that EACH OF US has the power to claim new self and step into it whenever we choose.

Several times a year I pick up my Bible, and books that explain the moment, to revisit what once had deep meaning to me and to reframe what tends to be important in our culture. This blog is no exception. Utilizing the book, The Last Week by Marcus Borj and John Dominic Crossan, both scholars, I share with you and remind myself of the lead up to and the crucifixion/resurrection of Jesus.

Spirituality REQUIRES time alone. In order to develop spiritually, one MUST spend time in solitude, meditation, and prayer. It is a habit or practice which trains the mind from living circumstantially to living from purpose. It trains us from getting feedback to the many voices of the world to cultivating a reliance on one’s own. If you are someone who hasn’t spent much time alone, then it may be time for you to start.

Twenty year ago I interviewed a woman close to 100 years old who was a congregant of Dr. Ernest Holmes. She agreed to an interview as long as I would minister to her afterward. Her distress…her friend wouldn’t talk to her. I still to this day think about our conversation. She is near death, her body is failing her, and her focus is her friendship. Her angst was around a relationship that wasn’t functional in the moment.

The esthetician looks at my face and asks me what my areas of concern are. I tell her I have a list yet my face looks like my age and I’m happy with it. She shakes her young head. She can’t believe my age. She thinks I am twenty two years younger. She asks me my ‘hack’ to looking so young. Out of my mouth fly the words “my attitude.”

I lay on the facial lounge with a mister on my face and she says, “tell me about your attitude, how did you get it?”

“I trained my mind. I began in my 20s. It has really paid off.”

He says in his book Confessions that it was his daily prayer practice that brought him close to God. Other slaves took to calling him “Holy Boy.” He was changing. After six years in captivity he had two dreams. The first was about his upcoming freedom, the second was guidance to go to the sea. He traveled 200 miles to the sea to board a ship. It would be two years before he would make it home to Britain by ship and land.

Let me tell you what I know about forgiveness. Forgiveness includes an inner reconciliation that is beyond saying the words “I forgive you.” I found forgiveness hard to get to without looking at the benefits of the offense to my Soul, not my personality’s likes or dislikes. I call this part “Embracing”. Today then, became a day for me of forgiving (recognizing there is a bigger going on for my Soul’s benefit) and an embracing of what has been and is…looking at the gratitude within it and calling it forward.

This is what I chose to do: